haiz...why must it be a fact... i realli could not accept e facts.......
did not go to sch todae... as dun wish to... haix... how i wish everyday i could be like this.... haix... yesterdae on the way to sch i cried... in class i oso cried... why mus i cry..? why mus there be a facts...? haixx.... i dunno wat to do.... i will nv forget him and i nv wanna forget him..... how i wish i could easily avoid e facts... how i wish i knew nothing at all... how i wish...how i wish.... no matter how much i wish...e facts is still the facts....... i could nv treats that i knew nothing at all.......... how i wish i could jus sleep the whole day long..... forever....forever...... how i wish i could not see him forever... how i wish i will not be in school forever........ that's wat i wished... but not wat i thinks..... i still cant face e reality..... reality ish realli very cruel........ as cruel as death.... haix..... did nothing much but doing this blog......... i will have endless tears... ever since i knew it..... i cried everyday..... how i wish i could jus stop thinkin... but e only way mayb is jus to stop breathing..... haiiz............. how long will i be able to stand up again.... how long will they last...?........... why mus they happen...... i dun wish to see him jus disappear from my mind like this..... i realli dun wish to....... haix......